英语翻译下一年我就要去美国工作了总有一些比我倔强的人..她们不相信我,就像我不相信其他人一样...现在我终于知道,要取得

英语翻译
下一年我就要去美国工作了
总有一些比我倔强的人..
她们不相信我,就像我不相信其他人一样...
现在我终于知道,要取得一个人的信任其实是那么困难..
我绝望了,我彻底绝望了
时差,这是一个人人都恨透的东西
我甚至恨不得我马上可以飞到那个和你同时区的地方
但是就算我去到那个你存在的地方,就意味着我可以见到你了吗?
尽管我真的决定要去那个地方了.
也许我根本不知道现实中的你是怎样的一个人,也许你结婚了,也许你有女朋友了,也许你压根对我没感觉,对于你,我有无尽的猜测.我甚至每天晚上无法入睡,就是因为想着这些该死的问题!
我找不到有一个共同语言的朋友,我的意思是,我在我的时区,找不到那个我可以倾诉的人
也许我本来就不属于这个世界的
我真希望我不存在
但是我是确实的存在着
我的存在,会不会让这个世界感到一点厌倦,我是说,我感觉这个世界上的一切,都在怨恨着我
我爱一个人,她可能觉得我们不可能
但是,就算我真的去到那个地方
她一定就能肯定这一切吗?
我到底怎么了
我为什么那么难过?
我觉得没什么难过的,但是我为什么还要难过?
我下一年的九月份,就要去美国了,原本打算要去加拿大的,但是计划变化了,公司要求我要去美国的总部,我既感到兴奋,也有点迷茫,我根本不认识那个地方.
那是我一直梦想去的地方,但是为什么当我知道我要实现的时候,我却感到退缩了?我到底在害怕什么?
我和中国的朋友闹翻了,我搞砸了一切,我感觉我什么都没了,然而要在这样的情况下去一个对我来是完全陌生的地方,这算什么呢?
我一旦去了美国,就有可能很久都不能回来中国了,我害怕,当我再次回到中国,我的朋友们,我的家人会不会已经忘记我了
我觉得我是个坏人,我是个讨人厌的人,对于某些人来说,我更是个烦人的人.
我甚至开始讨厌我自己了
我只是希望能找到一个可以保护我的人,因为我知道我很脆弱,我经历过一些无法想象得往事（我相信每个人都经历过）,我要的真的是很简单,我只希望能找到一个对我好的人,不管如何,只要不受伤害.

I shall go to the USA to study next year.

There arealways some people more stubborn than me.

They don’ttrust me just like I don’t trust other people.

Now Ifinally understand that it is in fact so difficult gain someone’s trust.

I amhopeless now. I am really completely hopeless now!

The timedifference is the very thing that everybody hates.

I even couldn’t wait and would like to fly to the place, which has the same time with
you.

But even if I could go to the place, where you are residing, would that mean I could see you
there then?

The answeris: don’t know, although if I really have decided to go to that place.

May be I will never know what kind of a person you are in reality. May be you are already
married. May be you already had a girlfriend. May be you don’t even have a tiny bit of feeling about me at all. To you, I have endless of speculation. I couldn’t even sleep at night, just for all these ridiculous questions!

I couldn’t find anyone speaks the same language with me. What I mean is, I couldn’t find
anyone in my time zone who I could talk to.

May I don’tbelong to this world in the first place.

How I wish Ido not exist at all!

But I amdefinitely here in this world!

Would my
existence bores this world to tears? What I am saying is: I have a feeling that everything of this world hates me!

I am in lovewith someone but she thinks that it cannot be possible.

But If Ireally have got to that place,

Would she reallybe able to certain about everything?

I don’tknow.

What is thematter with me now?

How come Iam so sad?

I don’tthink there is any sadness but why am I still feeling sad?

Next year’s
September, I shall go to the USA. Originally I wanted to go to Canada, but the plan has changed. My company wants me at the US headquarters. I am feeling kind of excited and also a bit confused, because I know nothing about that place.

That was the place I have been dreaming to go all the time, but why now I know I can go
there and hesitate. What exactly I am afraid of?

I fell out with my Chinese friends here. I have destroyed everything. I am feeling that I don’t have anything left. And if I am going to another strange place under such situation, then what do I call this is?

Once if I have gone to the USA, there could be a possibility that I won’t be coming back to China for a very long time. I am scared, by the time when have returned to China, would my friends and family still remember me?

I feel that I am a bad person and a disgusting person. To some certain people, I am even a
troublesome person.

I am even starting to hate myself!

I only want to find someone who can protect me, because I know I am very weak. I have gone
through some unthinkable experiences (I believe most people would also have been through them too). I am really very simple. I only need to find someone who would good to me, no matter what, as long as if I don’t get hurt.
What can Ido?

Can anyonetell me?