英语翻译monk:First,I have to thank you for your companion these

英语翻译
monk:
First,I have to thank you for your companion these years.I know you will feel uncomfortable when hear these words,but I still want to say.Thanks god for giving me someone like you ,who can always give me hand whenever I need you.I sincerecely opologise to you for all the wrong things and wrong words that I have thrown on you.During these years,I ignored all the devotions you did for me.I made boyfriends and parted.Not until I got hurt could I think of you.I know,you will always comfort me and warm my cold heart.But this year,I suddenly find your place in my mind.But I know you just take me as a friend,a good friend.Just because of my mom's begging ,you send me short messages and accompany me.Sometimes I think I am ridiculous.Love is a strange thing,we can meet someone right at a wrong time,while we can meet someong wrong at a right time.After the lunch,I have been upset for two days.I want to send message to you but I dare not.These years I missed too much.I'm afraid once I speak out these things,we would never be friend any more.The most funny thing in the world could not be more ridiculous than this.When you already get further,I'm getting falling with you.Yesterday I told you what Mrs Xu said,it was not a joke.It was just my try .Because I want to know what on earth are you thinking.Since you know me clearly,I hope you can understand my feelings these days.Despite of my rich experiences in love affairs,I still know little about what I truly want to acquire,who I truly want to find,or which direction I truly want to go.I thought innocently you will always be there,but now ,I know that was impossible.No one can insist so hard,no passion can last so long,and no emotion can exist so ever-lasting.This letter is written just to tell you what in my mind now.Maybe on your reading,these words,our seven years' friendship will come to an end.But I don't care.It's not my pesonality to be with you just as a friend when I realise your position in me.I don't know whether it's a correct decision for me to tell you all about this.But…J ust as what I said above,I won't regret.I just can't stand this puzzled feelings around me,which make my mind in a mess.You will not know how sad I was these two days.I had been waiting your message ,your call all day along.To see frankly,you let me down.But it's my fault.I'm not that innocent and carefree girl anymore.The past emotion experiences left too much pains on me as well made me dirty.I don't know why I now sit in front my laptop and type these words.Maybe this will make me comfortable.
Don't be afraid of hurting me.October now is stronger than before.If you feel ridiculous when read this letter,just cancel it and put my number into the blacklist,and I'll disappear from now on.Nothing can defeat me now,you know.At last,thank you again and wish you find your princess some day.

和尚（你叫和尚?）:
首先,我要感谢你这些年来你的陪伴.我知道你听到这句话会感到不舒服,但我还是要说.感谢上帝让我遇到一个像你这样每当我需要就给予我帮助的人.其次请允许我对曾经和你说过的不对的话做过的不正确的事道歉.这些年来,我忽略了你对我多有的奉献.我交过男朋友然后分手了.直到我受伤了我才能想起你.我知道,你总是会安慰我冰冷的心,温暖我.但是今年,我突然发现你在我心中的地位.但我知道你只是把我当作一个朋友,一个好朋友.只是因为我妈妈的请求,你给我发短信,陪着我.有时候我觉得我可笑.爱是一件奇怪的事情,我们能遇到有人在一个错误的权利,而我们可以满足有人错在正确的时间.那次一起吃午饭后,我一直不安两天了.我想发信息给你,可是我不敢了.这些年来我错过了太多.恐怕我曾经讲这些事,我们永远不会被朋友了.最有趣的事物在世界上不可能比这更荒谬.当你已获得进一步的,我有点下降与你在一起的感觉.我昨天告诉你徐太太所说的话并不是开玩笑.这只是我的尝试.因为我想知道你到底是什么想法.既然你知道我清楚,我希望你能明白我的感受,这些天.尽管我恋爱中有丰富的经验,我还是不了解我真正想获得什么,因为我真的想要找到,或我真正想去的方向.我以为你会一直在那里天真,但现在,我知道那是不可能的.没有人能坚持那么努力,没有激情可以持续很长时间,所以,没有情感存在永续的.这封信写的只是告诉你我此时的心情.也许在你的阅读,这些话,我们的七年的友情会走到尽头.但我不在乎.当我意识到你在我心里的位置时并不想仅仅的做个朋友.我不知道它是否是一个正确的决定,对我来说要告诉你这一点.但是…还像我上面所说的,我不会后悔的.我只是不能忍受这个困惑的感情围绕着我,使我的心陷入一片混乱.你不知道我是多么悲伤这两天.我一直在等待你的消息,你的电话一整天.看到坦白地说,你太让我失望了.但那是我的过错.我没那么天真的相信女孩了.过去的感情经历了太多的痛苦就像把我弄脏了一样.我不知道为什么在电脑前说出前面那些话.这也许会让我很舒服.
别怕伤害我.现在的我比十月份时坚强多了.如果你觉得可笑看这封信的时候,就关了,把我的电话号码列入黑名单,我就会消失了.现在没有什么能打败我,你知道的.最后,再次感谢你,希望你有一天找到你的公主.
大概就是这么个意思了